Thursday Throwbacks….

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Christoph Friedrich Blumhardt

The land yields its harvest; God, our God, blesses us. May God bless us still, so that all the ends of the earth will fear him. Psalm 67:6–7, NIV

Lord our God, bless us, that the world may be blest. Help us, that the whole world may be helped. Grant us your mercy in Jesus Christ, who laid down his life for the whole world. May it soon be revealed that your kingdom stands and will bring our age to an end, a good and blessed end. Grant your blessing on every aspect of our lives, on all the concerns and requests we have on our hearts, and help us to praise and thank you every day. Let your will become known everywhere in spite of the horror and blasphemy, so that even the dying may glorify you and all who have to suffer may praise and thank you because they see your face and recognize your light. We want to entrust everything to you, Lord God. We await you. We rejoice and thank you, for we know your will shall be done. We know and believe that your name shall be glorified. Amen.

 

 

 

Well, this is a special edition of my Blog……a more personal one……..let’s call it a confession, of sorts……….and a venting of emotions, too…….

I recall days when I knew how my life might turn out……way back in High School……..first, in Elementary School– a Catholic one — I was studying to be a Nun, of all things, and believe it or not…….then in High School, I decided to be a teacher and my Dad was proud of this…. but, these plans all fell through….I got pregnant, got married, and had two children with him…and, even THIS didn’t work out!  

Over the years, I had three more children, with two different men…..neither worked out….why?  I tried.  I waited on the men….just as I’d seen my Mom do with my Dad……but I screwed up anyhow.  I blame myself, not them……….

I have five grown children, four sons and a daughter……..I also have eight grandchildren….I don’t know if I have any great-grandchildren yet, or on the way…..I lost communication with them……I guess I screwed up AGAIN!   

I came to Oklahoma 20 years ago……met a young guy here, and stayed…..left everything I had in Pennsylvania and chose this man over all of it and everyone there……why?  My relationships never worked before.  What made me so sure that THIS one would be any different?   Well, I’m still with him…….he is the most patient man I have ever known and I love him dearly……he has stood by me always….even when members of his family decided to pull the rug out from under me……….Oh, I forgive them all, but I don’t think I’ll ever forget it…….the fear stays with me……the disappointment……the sadness…..the loneliness……..I had thought that they were different, maybe even better, than the people I left behind……but, the trick they pulled on me……and the dire threats they made towards my son and myself……it was after all that that I began having bad trouble with my heart……….

I just have my guy and my two sons here now…..no one else……..I’m all alone in the world………..my other children and my grandchildren never communicate…..they blocked me out of their lives…..why?  Who knows?  Because I couldn’t afford my granddaughter’s wedding…..so I wasn’t able to travel to be there?  My baby sister Nan was there……..she fits in, I guess………..I can say this….she’s MY sister……….they treat me like I don’t exist, and I think this may be how they’ve wanted it.  So, I try not to bother them…..not even with my health problems……and they don’t ask, either……..live their lives……….all of them.

So people come and go in our lives………..and today is just another day…..throwback Thursday…………enjoy it!

 

 

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God bless you all!!!!!

 

 

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